Try try, but don't cry!
But what if you are trying forever, drained mentally, emotionally, and physically but still not seeing a change? Something which you desired and longed for!
This is something that many of us experience, because that is what life is, trying to achieve something but landing somewhere else. After all, the universe has other plans for you.
You may feel like giving up every day, seeing others succeed, become better, and ace things that you couldn't do. This is pretty common. Feeling low, suffocated, and not feeling enough. That constant feeling of lacking and lagging, when others are happy is what you need to escape from. Escaping this claw is surely what is required. This clue is the rebound to the future and will push you into the hole of the past.
My friend is one of the best at every task she does. She does it with precision and skill. This has always left everyone around her in awe. Recently she has applied for the summer internship program. The four colleges she had applied to, were the most reputed in the country. She had applied with utmost dedication and was anxious about the results. When the first one's result came out, it wasn't in her favor. She was broken, but I made her believe that she could do it as she has done in the past. Somewhat consoling, enough to gather her shattered spirits, she received a negative response from all the remaining colleges too.
What this left with, was trauma, anxiety, and self-deprecating tendencies. She felt she wasn't enough, she wasn't enough to fight the world and emerge victorious. She was broken.
Even after trying, she could not get in. Was it her fault? Should she believe that she's never gonna make it in life and that she isn't capable?
The answer is No!
A big No!
There will be days when you will not feel enough, enough for anything! That is when you should look up to the moon and see. There are days, it is full and then it wanes. Yet it's beautiful and shining, and I still look at it with the same charm and longing. This is what I told my friend too, there will be days, you'll fall, you will feel incomplete and terrible, then, see how far you've come. Count your achievements and see how proud your past self is, seeing you accomplish all of it!
I am there, waiting for you to fall so that I can lift you and lift you so, that even the peaks of success feel a step away because I see her trying and would want to keep her going.
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